Why do I often have the urge to jump off the balcony of the dormitory five or six?

Reason tells you that suicide can't solve the problem, which means that reason is still there.

Constant impulsiveness only means that you haven't found a better way to tune your mind. All the negativity is constantly affecting you, eroding you, occupying more and more of your mind.

You know, there are countless students like you all over China. There are just as many ways to deal with pressure. There are only two kinds of classification: negative and positive.

Negative people are not only in the face of setbacks, but also in the face of achievements.

Positive people are upward and progressive in any environment.

The protagonist who chooses these two ways is, of course, only yourself.

I often tell many people that what the world is like depends not on the world, but on yourself. When you choose to think that the world is gray, she is gray and lifeless.

When you choose to think that the world is colorful, then she is colorful. I can see from your description that you chose gray.

The motivation to adjust all this always comes from yourself alone, and your subjective conscious renunciation leads you to fall into the gray world and cannot extricate yourself. Being told that you are worthless is because others did not see your shining point, or in other words, you did not let others see your shining point. Looking back, can you see your own sparkle.

Are you at a loss for yourself? Or did you have a good vision? In fact, you are already a sophomore, don't you already have an advantage over many people who can't go to college?

Is it too late to give up at this time, it's not cost-effective?

It's hard to get an instant impression just by a few sentences here. However, you are always the only one who can grasp yourself.

Tell you a way to do things:

In the face of all kinds of pressure, or facing one's own studies, or facing one's own future, from the perspective of subjectivity, there are three ways: to cope with all your strength, to go all out, and to go all out. You choose for yourself, and the way you choose this choice does not determine the outcome of the thing you face, but it can definitely determine whether you can feel happy in the process of doing things.

Happy people will not commit suicide.

The most important thing is to keep your grades now, expect to graduate, assign a job, and then be independent, use your own money to support yourself, work hard, earn money to honor your parents, and when the time comes, those who say you will naturally not say, use your own practical actions to prove, I study for the future work, to support myself, to support my family, to build a family, I have the ability to do this, and then people may praise you upside down

Hearing ugly words will definitely make the mood unpleasant, but when we think about the bright prospects of the future, the more they look down on me, the more I have to prove to them, reading is a good way out, and those voices will naturally disappear if we have a successful career in the future

Make more plans, then think more about your goals, look forward, and hope that you can get out of the family's mental predicament.